June 2008

I think Korea has helped significantly in what I want to do with my life.

Take a look at what Korean fashion is like here:





There’s just some almost intangible characteristic about Korean clothes that sets them apart from Western clothes. Korean clothes are quite lovely (and I’m talking about the high-end stuff, not the cheap trendy stuff).

Will add more to this later.



I have something to complain about, something that people over the age of 50 will probably want to give me a good, hard knock upside the head.

I really hate looking young.

No, seriously. I could pass for a high school kid, an 8th grader at the least. A 20 year old young lady looking like a 15-16 year old! Sigh. It also doesn’t help that this general hairstyle is most popular amongst junior and high school girl students. I guess the haircut doesn’t help much, but I seriously love it. (Although I must admit I’m getting a bit bored with it.) I want something edgy. I guess I’ll just make my bangs more blunt and chop a few centimeters off the bottom. Actually, this hairstyle CAN be considered edgy; I think it is the bangs that you have to style more. I’m rambling.

This is not just because of the hair. Oh no. It’s also my genes. My face is round, and instead of having strong, womanly, defined features, I have round, soft features on a small, flat face. I also have a plump figure, and of course, being short doesn’t help at all. This all makes me look like a child.

Also, my style of clothes lately has been centering around “cute” and “cutely feminine”. There’s been a lot of bows and pastel colors and frilly stuff. God, I love it. I love Korean clothes. I have to restrain myself from shopping from now on… but I still continue to because I know that I won’t be able to buy clothes like this in the States once I go back… boring, standard American clothes with no creativity and whimsy… *sobs*

So. The fact that 1) I’m around 158 cm. (5’2.5″) 2) have a haircut similar to Korean high school girls 3) have baby-ish features and 4) dress in a “cute” style all combine to form the Eunice in Korea today that is often mistaken for a high school kid. Let me note that it’s considered a GOOD thing to be told that you look like a high school kid here in South Korea. But anyways, to get back on point, I hate looking really young. I know that I’ll be carded repeatedly in the States because of the culmination of Reasons 1, 2, 3, and 4 above, long after my 21st birthday. And because I definitely won’t look my age, I will probably be discriminated against several times. I know that a lot of people won’t take me seriously until I open my mouth and prove myself. I know that women that are considered the “ideal” of beauty will probably feel smug whenever they see me. I brace myself for this.

I could get away with looking young before… because yes, I was young. I was a teenager, still in the awkward development stages of life. But now, I’m 20. I am no longer a teenager. I am now a young woman. I have a much more defined idea of who I am and what I want to do in the future. I know myself a lot better. And that’s why I feel like I have to match up my image to my current mentality. However, I worry that my current image may project a more immature look than I would like. But, like in all situations, there are limitations.

The frustrating thing is that other young ladies can wear the same style as mine and look perfectly fine and mature… and still really pretty and cute. The problem is that in those cases… they’re tall. So I believe that height really is the defining factor many things – maturity, attractiveness, etc. etc. etc. On the Korean TV shows, pretty actresses wear outfits I KNOW would make me look like a 5 year old… but still look like an adult wearing pretty, feminine clothes! What the hell?!

Why couldn’t I have been “assigned” a more striking image? It’d be great to have that sexy, “tousled-hair-smoldering-eyes” image with the striking features. Because, honestly – what man wants a girl on his arm that looks like a naive, round-eyed kindergartner? Ah, we can’t have it all, I guess. Except sometimes it feels that I really don’t have a lot of things. Do I think too much? Maybe I do. Maybe I shouldn’t worry about this as much as I do now. ^^;

The trend for boys in Korea to wear skinny jeans/pants tucked into hi-top sneakers is not new, apparently! The Cure wore their shoes and pants that way in their video for “Friday I’m In Love”, which was released in the late 1980s, I believe…